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I put a a new skin on my xanga last night. im happy with it for now, somethings id like to change but im ognna leave it. took less than an hour or so to figure out what i wanted to do and get it done.

wann work on the flash, but im so tired. i went to actionscripts.org and found there site was hacked. at least the index page was. i was still able to find my way to the tutorials. anyway, the hacked front page was pretty interesting. in case its not up there anymore, it looked sumthing like this (might take some time to load):
ActionScripts.org by GipsHackers Crew

i feel sorry for AS.org, but its funny.

i wasnt feelin the scrolling entries, so i got rid of em.

so tired. i need to sleep so i can focus. im off tomorow, which means that i have llotsa time alter to work on all this and more.

twenty years of selfish pride
i tried to hide
i cant deny
My ears they burn
with words i’ve heard
i can’t discern
The knots inside my heart take hold
i seem so cold
leave me alone
i shut and lock my doors
this place is not yours
you’re on foreign shores
Stay out of my way
im alone today
i have options to weigh

this wasnt always the pattern
not that it matters
but i seem to be scattered
its been growin since 96
dont know what it is
but its where it begins
the lack of focus on my part
following my heart
but my brain doesnt start
the road that is less traveled
is the one that i unravel
yet, i’m tempted by paved gravel

speak words to soothe me
but but jsut let me be
im tired of the monotony
i’d write on blackboard wiht fingertips
or shred my bones to bits
than hear my name on your lips
im sure you mean well
but how much mroe can i tell
that your presence does not do me well
you dont seem to understand “No!”
so i ahve no respect to show
id rather see you in the belly of a volcano
these words may be harsh
but i didnt even start
to speak from the heart
but my focus is adrift riight now

AAAGGGGHHHH!!!

i need my own place!

today i had work not by choice, and then work by choice.

first it was work at BBY, it was alright, setup two planograms that i ahvent setup before, Cell Phones and Computer Speakers. both required a bit of work. Cell phones required unsecuring phones and resecuring them in new locations and securing new displays. Computer Speakers required connecting speakers to switches and to the CD player. jsut a lot of dismantling and reassembling.

then i got home bout 330. fromt hen on i worked on my website in Flash. got parts working that i couldn’t get working yesterday. then i thought of new things that i want, that’ll take more time figuring out. big help from ActionScripts.org. There are tutorials in ActionScript that are really helpful. been findin lotsa stuff there to help me remember soem things, and just reference scripts to use.

it’s tough figurin out all this, but i like figuring things out.

CROSSING JORDAN RETURNS! WHOO HOO! TVs on, decided to take break. and now strangers are IMing me. I know how to take a break. Now I ahve a stalker. interesting.

i shoudln’t have the TV on and IM and all at the same time. that plus my lack of sleep adds to lack of focus and GRR! lata

i been workin with XML and FLash ActionScript 2.0. Can’t get it to work right, gotta rethink my coding. for somereason it doesn’t like my arrays and the number 8 is involved. don’t mean to confuse you guys, but im very confused too. my eyes hurt, i got work tomrow mornin. hopefully i can get it figured out tomorow.

workin with ActionScript brings back memories of CS. which makes me think bout goin to school for MIS. which is confusing me even more. i look to it as more of a hobby than a profession for me. then again. im at odds with myself.

so im definitely leavin xanga for my creative entries, and this blog for my other “autobiographical” entries. I’m tryin to get a new layout for my xanga, don’t know what just yet. i was playin with some pics, tryin out some stuff. we’ll see. as for the layout of this site, i have plans, and they involve Flash and XML. but first i must study them and undserstand how they can comingle. Also i have to remember all my programming classes so i can use ActionScript 2.0. it’ll be hot once im done, i hope.

Saturday was the wedding in NY. it was long. lotsa prayers and messages and songs and prayers and speaking and prayers. amazingly, with the 4 hours of sleep per night that i’d been having, i stayed awake throughout the ceremony. there were over 900 attendees. the reception was alright, but with all those people everyone was spread out and i couldn’t see the slideshow, and it was aright. if i have that many people im gonna plan it right so its more feasable to see everything and everyone.

We got home around 7/7:30 that evening. I had planned to meet the Best Buy crew at Red Robin, and then go watch Starsky & Hutch. We were supposed to meet at 630, but fortunately they ran late, and i made it just as the table was called. we ate and got to the theater and every showing was sold out until 1030, and most of them had to get up for 6AM shifts the next mornin, so we deliberated for about 30 minutes. We had the choices of seeing another movie, buying tickets for another movie and sneak into the 945 S&H, or jsut fogedboudit and go home. Finally we decided to watch the 1030 showing. it was funny. i liked it.

In my rush to leave home that night i tripped over Nicole. she fell and i twisted my leg a bit, but no injuries. Well, almost no injuries. Nicole became verry out of tune, and tuning her with her FLoyd Rose Trem is difficult, but worth it. There was one casualty, the cable running from nicole to my pedalboard became bent at nicole’s end. i tried to bend it back, but it doesnt work. i checked the connections under the sleeve, and they are connected, so it’s the lead it self. No worries, i have another cable, it’s not angled like the old one which would have been easier, but it does the trick.

back to my study in XML. or just a whole lotta nuttin til 10ish.

ignorance is bliss,
until awareness rears its head.
then, like judas’ kiss,
i find my heart as cold as death

i wrote a poem today. i forget what it was. OH wait found it!

Squeaky chair annoys my ears
Tragic story brings forth tears
sniffing Goo Gone hurts my head
taking a sip makes me dead
eight hours shifts and body is sore
talking to you is a bore

yea, today at work i was sniffin the goo gone. smells like oranges. funny story:

“My head hurts,” I told Joe, as i lifted the bottle of Goo Gone to take another delightful whiff. He looked at me me curiously and said sarcastically, “I wonder why?” The smell was so pleasing, so refreshing. If only i had an orange.

As i stood there in the middle of the warehouse, with everyone paying me no attention, i contemplated the flavor of goo gone. i tend to think out loud. I looked down at the bottle for warning labels. It read, “Can be harmful or fatal if swallowed!” Well, it wasn’t definite, it was just a possibility right?

I walked to the boxes of unpriced CDs, where Joe was diligently pricing, along with Floyd. Stretching out the bottle i said, “Joe, I’ll take a sip, and then you take a sip, and we’ll go back and forth until one of us passes out. It’ll be our game of Goo Gone Roulette.”

Joe just laughed and returned to his work citing, “I don’t gamble.”

I was gonna add a video section. I have a video from 6th annual NJMTC COffeehouse. its a short clip wiht these guys doin “Praise God!” to the tune of “Hey Ya!” It’s really funny. And i have another video i wanted to put up of our first PCYF meeting. thing is they’re all big files, and i only have 300MB of space. the Coffeehouse clip is bout 3MB, the PCYF clip is bout 50MB. until i can find a video server, or afford more space, im not gonna put that up.

Other than that i have to make Narco’s site. i guess it’ll be fun. dint really wanna do it, but now that my video page is fallin apart, ill try to get on that. Everyone get ready for his Epicult. or was it Epacult. whatever.

Xanga is down. i think ill jsut be posting entries here. keep my xanga for some stuff every now and then. maybe ill write stories there, prepare for my novel. a fictional novel. “Da Vinci” is a fictional novel, so don’t be misled. i know that came outta nowhere.

Yea, i dont think im gonna be puttin titles on every new entry. maybe once in a while. iunno. jsut dont feel ike it. but i did add music. ne’r thought id do that, but i did.

Had my test today. was fairly easy, fnished it, passed it i do believe. gave in my resume, so hopefully ill get a diploma and they’ll help me find a job. maybe i can get a job with puresound. hmm…

Every musician shoudl read this (its old, i know):
Riders on the Storm

It’s an article written by John Densmore, drummer for The Doors. The ORIGINAL Doors. not that sham of a band the Doors of the 21st Century. That is a piece of crap that Ray Manzarek and Robby Krieger came up with to milk as much money out of Jim Morrison as they could. Ian Astbury is a tool for doing it. The last i heard John and the Morrison family were suing Ray, Robby and Ian.

The article itself talks about how Jim always wanted things done uninimously, meanin if one badn memeber didnt want to do it, then they didnt do it. for example, selling a song for a commercial. In other words, ray and robby sold out. he lists other bands that have sold their songs for money. It made me think. you may not agree with all he has to say, but at least it’ll make you think.

Also read this:
Perception of Doors

That is the reaction from some readers to the article.

It’s hard not to “sell out” these days, and be successful in the music industry. but sometiems bands become too much pop, and greedy, and dont make music for musics sake. Metallica sold out. they did, they did. I’m not a huge metallica fan or anything, but compared t their older albums, St. anger SUCKED! but thats not the point. they said they’d never make a music video, and they did, which isnt too big a deal, cuz everyone makes videos, but they did kinda betray their fans. ALSO, they committed the biggest act of selling out when they did that MTV Icon show. WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?

MTV destroyed music. It’s true, “video killed the radio star.” I watch MTV, and i enjoy some of waht they have, but most of it is bubblegum pop for teeny boppers. And the thing now is to amke the hottest video so the big companies can make as much money as they can. It’s not about music anymore, its about how they look and how much money they can rake in.

i would vent some more and clear up some of waht i said, but eh…