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I had an entry to put up. it was about friday night, but its a long one and im not done and i gotta get pics. PLUS, i jsut found out my dad’s friends wife died in India, and that he might go. If need be, i might go with him. then again, my passport is expired, so maybe i wont be able to go. i wouldn’t mind goin.

I am a lil pissed though, cuz pstr chack and pastr freddy came over to pray and whatnot. and my paretns didnt tell me anything about what was goin on. AND my mom called MY cell phone askin to speak to pstr chack while we were in church and i asked whats wrong, and she dint say anything. UGH! WHAT THE HECK! whatever

tomorow’s sunday. Finally, im runnin the board tomrow, which means everything will sound good! but its only for one week, so we’ll see. In a perfect world, everything wil sound better and everyone will be like “he should be the new audio coordinator.” but this isnt a perfect world is it? of course not.

MY FUTURE! yes, i’ve been thinkin about it again. what i thought was certain has become uncertain. pstr PB Thomas was here, and i was tellin him how im bout to get my diploma in audio engineering and i mgiht get a job wiht it in NY. i dint tell him about my college plans just then, and he was liek yea, you could come up ther and come to our churhc and stay with someone (not sure if he said stay with himn, i think he was tryin to step around that, its ok) which got me thinkin, y not?

So now, im thinkin, go to NY, work at a recording studio, maybe make conncetions or even, hopefully, find some ppl to form my perfect band. Berklee’s outa the picture, almsot, cuz i dont think id make it in. iunno, maybe im jsut scared. but NY is DEFINITLY where i want to end up, berklee or not.

and while im workin a the recording studio, perhaps i can go to college there, get my degree, and iunno…

its too late, i cant think straight.

i jsut realiezed something…cant say because of what i jsut realized. yes, i speak in strange riddles, that aren’t really riddles. neway, gnight

alright, now my Xanga skin, matches my IndianBear.com blog layout. My tagboard works on IB.com, but not on xanga, least not yet. I’m gonna dive into the script and fiddle wiht it until it works on both. For now, Flooble is on both pages, AND the tagboard is up on IB.com.

It’s PAYDAY! whoo hoo!

last night, LATE last ngiht i discovered something that may turn this day into a glorious day. we’ll see how it goes. but i was so xcited/nervous/anxious that i went to bed late and got up early. me ‘n nicole were just makin music playin away. she’s been good so far.

i tried to isntall a new window motor in our 2000 Toyota Sienna. we realized that the motor we had (remanufactured from Cardone) didnt seem to ahve the right connections, but the motor itself was the same. and in order to replace the motor, we ahve to remove the welded door? i think.

Todays is Moo’s Birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

im done. im gone here i go

it appears that no one can finish the video department as fast as Dora. Today was another truck day, and this time frank did video, still went past 10, but not as bad as it was the last few times.

mm, ate too much. we had lunch paid for us today. had a chicken cheese steak and plain pizza. and there a new candy endcap. IT�S SO PURTY! we finally have real candy! but we dont get a discount on it which sux. there�s bubbilicious, bazooka, slim jims, beef jerky, gummy worms, and TONS of other goodies. no PEZ, which upsets dora.

i think im gonna call the In A Fix crew from TLC to do our basement. hmm, possibilities. watchin all those remodeling/decorating shows makes me want to redo my room, BIG TIME. maybe with orange and blue. chalkboard paint? mm, the possibilities. gotta watch it more so i can get more ideas

im gonna add more pages. alias, RR/RW, iunno what else yet

So I just cleaned out my car. My 1990 Toyota Camry. Ol’ Bessy. I called her that cuz drivin her felt like drivin an old cow. Whenever i started her up in the cold she’d be stubborn and make me turn the key at least 3 times before starting. I’d be saying “C’mon Bessy!” You could put the key in, start her up, take the key out, throw it out the window, and drive wihtout it. That car was Ghetto Fabolous. I was gonna pimp her out and everything, get her a nice body kit and all.

I had put in a new head unit with an MP3 CD player, a Sony MP40. Not bad, pretty nice. I took out the MP40 and put back the old stock head unit. It was an old cassette deck thats missin the knobs for balance and bass/treble.

As i said, i took everything out and here’s a list of everything that i found inside Bessy:

Cassettes

• Reflections of Christ – Take His Hand, unopened

CDs

• Cappella, Bob – Expressions of Worship, unopened (sorry bob)
• Foo Fighters – One By One, import w/ bonus disc
• Hendrix, Jimmy – Live at Berkeley
• !Hero, The Rock Opera soundtrack
• Newsboys – Take Me to Your Leader, CD only
• Tehillah Toronto – Born of the Spirit, case only
• Skillet – Collide
• The Strokes – Room on Fire
• The White Stripes – White Blood Cells, liner notes only
• The Who – Tommy, CD only
• The Who – Ultimate Collection, with only Disc 1 and case

Burned CDs

• Christian Rock MP3s w/ dc Talk, Audio Adrenaline, Jars of Clay
• More Rock MP3s w/ AFI, Audioslave, The Benjamin Gate, Skillet, P.O.D., U2 (ok, rock/Christian MP3s)
• Praise & Worship MP3s w/ Delirious, Matt Redman, Hillsongs, Rock ‘n’ Roll Worship Circus, and Soul Survivor 2002
• P&W MP3s disc 2 w/ Jeff Deyo, Revival Generation, SONICFLOOd, Third Day, and The Burn Service
• Rock MP3s w/ Foo Fighters, Jimi Henrix, Jimmy Eat World, led Zeppelin, Linkin Park, Phantom Planet, The Elms, The White Stripes, and Incubus
• Tonal Mix with songs for Tonal Memory to cover

Change ($1.67)

• 122 pennies
• 1 nickel
• 1 dime
• 2 quarters

Miscellaneous Item

• band-aids, 6
• battery, cell, CR2025
• Best Buy name tag
• Best Buy receipt, an employee purchase totalling $152.70
• bouncing ball, green
• Bucks County Community College student parking permit, valid thru 8/31/2003
• button
• candy, red, in wrapper, with 1 John 4:12 printed
• cardboard rectanlge that says “XBOX®”
• Case for blank CD, empty
• Chapstick® stick
• cough drop wrapper (Luden’s®)
• country fresh/prairie scented air freshener
• Express credit card bill for $97.02, dated 6/04/2003
• flyer about Inner Soul Records
• fuse for an unknown device
• fuse for my “home studio” mixer
• granola bar wrapper
• gum wrappers, 10
• ice scraper
• inspection report on Bessy from 6/14/2001 (she passed)
• insurance card valid from 3/03/2003 to 3/03/2004
• lock de-icer, in case the locks get frozen (why is it IN the car?)
• Maruti’s Auto receipt, service for $76
• miniature Pittsburgh Steeler’s football helmet (my AFC team)
• miniature rubix cube with it’s stickers peeling (no, i was not cheating, jsut a cheap cube)
• nailcutters, 2
• napkins,brown unused, 8
• napkins, used, 6
• paper with homework on one side, and job openings at St. Mary’s on the other
• paper with Ephesians 4:3, from Watch Night service
• paperclips, 4
• Pathmark™ Advantage Club card
• pen/highlighter combo
• pencil
• pencil, mechanical
• pens, 5
• Pepsi® can, half full (optimistic am I)
• picture of my youngest brother, FoN, torn into 16 pieces (i have no clue)
• SEPTA token
• Softsoap® handgel, no water required
• Sony MP40 manual
• Sunoco gas station receipt totalling $7.01 (the day of Bessy’s last  accident)
• umbrella, St. George®, from India
• washer
• water bottle, empty
• whistle
• Winterfresh gum, 3 sticks

And finally here’s a pic of Bessy:

(sometimes i don’t feel like writing but i force my self jsut to get all of this out)

man, what a bad weekend

So that whole thing with my brothers happened (see Dec 13), and then a whole buncha other crap happened. i woke up saturday mornin round 1130 and didnt sleep at all the rest of the day.

I went to work Satuday night. Most nights we have to put up the products fromt he truck. the inventory team pulls the product out onto the floor, and from 10pm-6am the merch team (my department) puts up the products in the store. a good truck day is when teh truck is less than 800 pieces. a bad one is when its more than 1200 or so. saturday night was 1400. It wasnt too bad, but some people…MAN! they just take their time. didnt get home til round 830.

So i go home, it starts sleeting and lil snow, not too bad. i get home and get ready for church, without sleepin at all yet. my parents leave with the van leavin the three of us on our own to go to chruch, which is normal. They called and told as that cuz its slipery outside we had to take my car, cuz my brothers car is rear-wheel drive. That’s fine we just had to pump gas ont he way.

The roads were covered in sleet and snow and VERY slippery. on the way down Rt. 1 i decided to stop at the sunoco, cuz its fairly cheap there. So i try to turninto the first entrance, but the as i turn the car jsut goes straight. i cant stop it or anything. finally it stops and i have to turn into the second entrance. pump $7.00 of gas, enough to get to and back from church.

so we’re continuin down the road, and we have to turn right onto Byberry. This right turn is where the one lane jsut goes right, and there’s this little curb island there. i’m going fairly slow, 20-25MPH. i turn right and the car goes just every so slightly to the right, but goes straight. the wheels are turned completely tot he right and im pumpin the brakes (THAT NEVER WORKS!) and the car keeps moving, not stoppin and BAM! right up the curb. So the front driver side corner of the car is up on top of the curb. i bak up and pull a bt o the side, and examin the damage and it seems ok, tires messed up and all, nto flat, but teh axles sure to be messed up. i decided to drive it to church anyway. bout 5-10 more minutes to go. the gear shift is very hard-pressed to move to the poper gears.

i turn right and go on and try letting go of the steering wheel. Lo and behold the car turns to the left, not jsut slightly veering off, but trning as if i was turning into a driveway. i have to turn right in order o drive straight! at one light i didnt turn the wheel, i just let go to make the left turn. another light comes, it’s red and im trying to stop. brakes, Brake! BRAKE! it’s not stopping there are cars crossing, a pickup truck im about to hit, so i smahs the horn and honk, hoping they’ll move outta the way, since i cant move. the one car slows and stops, and fortunatley i stop too. we finally get to church and i park where i cant hit no one.

im low on sleep and tired, and now my car is messed up. i went in saw my mom told her and was jsut mad that in such bad weather they coudlnt wait for us. man, im mean to my parents…

i played bass during worship, and worship went well. We sang some older songs, but Shoes revitalized em, of course, in his own Shoes way. after that i went to watch the chirldren’s church. not really part of it, jsut watchin, sleepin… then churhc was over, chillin, talkin to kool-aid and Lyrical. slept form 2-8, work again, no truck, nto too bad, and im home.

Pinky said my hair looks good long! YESH! if only other knew how good it was…