indian bear

today i had work not by choice, and then work by choice.

first it was work at BBY, it was alright, setup two planograms that i ahvent setup before, Cell Phones and Computer Speakers. both required a bit of work. Cell phones required unsecuring phones and resecuring them in new locations and securing new displays. Computer Speakers required connecting speakers to switches and to the CD player. jsut a lot of dismantling and reassembling.

then i got home bout 330. fromt hen on i worked on my website in Flash. got parts working that i couldn’t get working yesterday. then i thought of new things that i want, that’ll take more time figuring out. big help from ActionScripts.org. There are tutorials in ActionScript that are really helpful. been findin lotsa stuff there to help me remember soem things, and just reference scripts to use.

it’s tough figurin out all this, but i like figuring things out.

CROSSING JORDAN RETURNS! WHOO HOO! TVs on, decided to take break. and now strangers are IMing me. I know how to take a break. Now I ahve a stalker. interesting.

i shoudln’t have the TV on and IM and all at the same time. that plus my lack of sleep adds to lack of focus and GRR! lata

i been workin with XML and FLash ActionScript 2.0. Can’t get it to work right, gotta rethink my coding. for somereason it doesn’t like my arrays and the number 8 is involved. don’t mean to confuse you guys, but im very confused too. my eyes hurt, i got work tomrow mornin. hopefully i can get it figured out tomorow.

workin with ActionScript brings back memories of CS. which makes me think bout goin to school for MIS. which is confusing me even more. i look to it as more of a hobby than a profession for me. then again. im at odds with myself.

so im definitely leavin xanga for my creative entries, and this blog for my other “autobiographical” entries. I’m tryin to get a new layout for my xanga, don’t know what just yet. i was playin with some pics, tryin out some stuff. we’ll see. as for the layout of this site, i have plans, and they involve Flash and XML. but first i must study them and undserstand how they can comingle. Also i have to remember all my programming classes so i can use ActionScript 2.0. it’ll be hot once im done, i hope.

Saturday was the wedding in NY. it was long. lotsa prayers and messages and songs and prayers and speaking and prayers. amazingly, with the 4 hours of sleep per night that i’d been having, i stayed awake throughout the ceremony. there were over 900 attendees. the reception was alright, but with all those people everyone was spread out and i couldn’t see the slideshow, and it was aright. if i have that many people im gonna plan it right so its more feasable to see everything and everyone.

We got home around 7/7:30 that evening. I had planned to meet the Best Buy crew at Red Robin, and then go watch Starsky & Hutch. We were supposed to meet at 630, but fortunately they ran late, and i made it just as the table was called. we ate and got to the theater and every showing was sold out until 1030, and most of them had to get up for 6AM shifts the next mornin, so we deliberated for about 30 minutes. We had the choices of seeing another movie, buying tickets for another movie and sneak into the 945 S&H, or jsut fogedboudit and go home. Finally we decided to watch the 1030 showing. it was funny. i liked it.

In my rush to leave home that night i tripped over Nicole. she fell and i twisted my leg a bit, but no injuries. Well, almost no injuries. Nicole became verry out of tune, and tuning her with her FLoyd Rose Trem is difficult, but worth it. There was one casualty, the cable running from nicole to my pedalboard became bent at nicole’s end. i tried to bend it back, but it doesnt work. i checked the connections under the sleeve, and they are connected, so it’s the lead it self. No worries, i have another cable, it’s not angled like the old one which would have been easier, but it does the trick.

back to my study in XML. or just a whole lotta nuttin til 10ish.

ignorance is bliss,
until awareness rears its head.
then, like judas’ kiss,
i find my heart as cold as death

i wrote a poem today. i forget what it was. OH wait found it!

Squeaky chair annoys my ears
Tragic story brings forth tears
sniffing Goo Gone hurts my head
taking a sip makes me dead
eight hours shifts and body is sore
talking to you is a bore

yea, today at work i was sniffin the goo gone. smells like oranges. funny story:

“My head hurts,” I told Joe, as i lifted the bottle of Goo Gone to take another delightful whiff. He looked at me me curiously and said sarcastically, “I wonder why?” The smell was so pleasing, so refreshing. If only i had an orange.

As i stood there in the middle of the warehouse, with everyone paying me no attention, i contemplated the flavor of goo gone. i tend to think out loud. I looked down at the bottle for warning labels. It read, “Can be harmful or fatal if swallowed!” Well, it wasn’t definite, it was just a possibility right?

I walked to the boxes of unpriced CDs, where Joe was diligently pricing, along with Floyd. Stretching out the bottle i said, “Joe, I’ll take a sip, and then you take a sip, and we’ll go back and forth until one of us passes out. It’ll be our game of Goo Gone Roulette.”

Joe just laughed and returned to his work citing, “I don’t gamble.”

I was gonna add a video section. I have a video from 6th annual NJMTC COffeehouse. its a short clip wiht these guys doin “Praise God!” to the tune of “Hey Ya!” It’s really funny. And i have another video i wanted to put up of our first PCYF meeting. thing is they’re all big files, and i only have 300MB of space. the Coffeehouse clip is bout 3MB, the PCYF clip is bout 50MB. until i can find a video server, or afford more space, im not gonna put that up.

Other than that i have to make Narco’s site. i guess it’ll be fun. dint really wanna do it, but now that my video page is fallin apart, ill try to get on that. Everyone get ready for his Epicult. or was it Epacult. whatever.

Xanga is down. i think ill jsut be posting entries here. keep my xanga for some stuff every now and then. maybe ill write stories there, prepare for my novel. a fictional novel. “Da Vinci” is a fictional novel, so don’t be misled. i know that came outta nowhere.

Yea, i dont think im gonna be puttin titles on every new entry. maybe once in a while. iunno. jsut dont feel ike it. but i did add music. ne’r thought id do that, but i did.

Had my test today. was fairly easy, fnished it, passed it i do believe. gave in my resume, so hopefully ill get a diploma and they’ll help me find a job. maybe i can get a job with puresound. hmm…

Every musician shoudl read this (its old, i know):
Riders on the Storm

It’s an article written by John Densmore, drummer for The Doors. The ORIGINAL Doors. not that sham of a band the Doors of the 21st Century. That is a piece of crap that Ray Manzarek and Robby Krieger came up with to milk as much money out of Jim Morrison as they could. Ian Astbury is a tool for doing it. The last i heard John and the Morrison family were suing Ray, Robby and Ian.

The article itself talks about how Jim always wanted things done uninimously, meanin if one badn memeber didnt want to do it, then they didnt do it. for example, selling a song for a commercial. In other words, ray and robby sold out. he lists other bands that have sold their songs for money. It made me think. you may not agree with all he has to say, but at least it’ll make you think.

Also read this:
Perception of Doors

That is the reaction from some readers to the article.

It’s hard not to “sell out” these days, and be successful in the music industry. but sometiems bands become too much pop, and greedy, and dont make music for musics sake. Metallica sold out. they did, they did. I’m not a huge metallica fan or anything, but compared t their older albums, St. anger SUCKED! but thats not the point. they said they’d never make a music video, and they did, which isnt too big a deal, cuz everyone makes videos, but they did kinda betray their fans. ALSO, they committed the biggest act of selling out when they did that MTV Icon show. WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?

MTV destroyed music. It’s true, “video killed the radio star.” I watch MTV, and i enjoy some of waht they have, but most of it is bubblegum pop for teeny boppers. And the thing now is to amke the hottest video so the big companies can make as much money as they can. It’s not about music anymore, its about how they look and how much money they can rake in.

i would vent some more and clear up some of waht i said, but eh…

eyes of brown turn down
the mind takes ahold of the day
images flash behind the blinds
things that weren’t now are
and peace is restored once again

I wrote it, I like it. prolly look at it later and hate it.

In football the object is the Qb to march the troops into enemy territory, balancing the aerial assault with a sustained ground attack that punches holes in the forward wall of the enemy’s D-Line.

In Baseball the object is to go home and be safe!

got that from koshy’s away message. funny

so i think that im gonna put lyrics from some of my fave songs as the titles to my entries. first person to comment witht he right song and lyric gets eprops. today’s is super easy

wow, what a loser

The apprentice is on!? oh its a rerun. love that show. Omarosa is defintly gonna be gone soon. she makes a big deal cuz some sheet rock fell on her head days ago. Nick’s good, but not good enough. He’s made mistakes, his team has won only once. Heidi, cant remember exactly what, but she hasnt made smart choices either. Katrina, shes hot;), but she gets emotional, especailyl when she was yelling about Troy’s ethics. Kwame and Bill have to step up and do something, they’ve both been quiet. Kwame’s ethics problem at the Hard Rock Cafe might cause him to be fired. Bill, i dont know, he doesnt seem to be doing anything. i think its between Amy and Troy right now. Amy has consistently been on the winning team. Troy, despite not having a college degree, has definitely proved himself coming up with ideas.

I think i can do better than all of em.

You would think that with whats been goin on in my private life that id be totally depressed and lsot and down, but its so not the case.

i thought last friday that i reached a moment of clarity, and in a sense i did. It was clear to me what i had to do, and i did it, and it led to me being totally unclear again. But that unclarity (word?) led me to think and understand that i was not clear.

I know, my new found clarity is not clear. but trust me, im clear. and my previous unclarity, was (in the words of the Led) ooooooohhh, nobody’s fault but mine. also saw my cuz use that phrase today.

BUT, i been pickin up nicole, playing, writing, doin what you amy or may not call singing. i feel good about the distant future, its a bit rocky, but good. the near future is what im worried about. no one cares, i know.

Comedy centrals on, doin a thing on Starsky & Hutch. I never seent he show, but it hails from the 70s era, therefore its good stuff. the DVD came out today, plus the movie comes out soon. and its stars Ben Stiller and Owen Wilson, and they always make good films. least i think so.

narco’s buggin me to cut his hair. so ima go cut it. my hair, on the other hand, is up. no gel or anything, so i look like a fobber. he’s whining now. BTW he’s 24. gg

look at this:
PURESOUND

These are malu guys living my dream, doin what i wanna do. well at elast half of what i wanna do. tehy go their own business providing audio services, like live sound installations, concerts and stuff. they did the PCNAK Conference last year here in philly (best conf! ok maybe not), but the sound did sound hott. AND they’ve done concerts for some of my fave Christian bands, DAvid Crowder Band, Skillet, Benjamin Gate (its not jsut the name that i like =P)

thats all good but i want to have my own studio too, and mkae my own boards. HOPEFULLY, moo will help out with that. got names and schematics and what not already. Everyone will buy a Nairehc board.

but all of em have degrees of some form of another. not neccasarily Audio engineering realted, but they all have experience with it.

im planning on takin my test thursday. hope i pass and get my diploma. then its finding a job. i mgiht be doing a recording session soon. hope it all goes well. work tomrow, need a new job.

Today was a tiresome day. got bout 4 hrs of sleep and worked four and a half hours. Then, i came home, my grandparents had come cuz they’re stayin with us while my parents go to india. Thats right, im not goin, my parents are, both of them.

I slept while almost my entire local extended family helped them get ready. around 4 i woke up, took some pictures for them to take to india, and went with them to the airport. we dropped them off, and came back.

It was me, david, my cuzns, linda and feba, and their parents in my cuzns minivan. we were heading back form Newark airport, and uncle isnt the best driver. linda, feba, if you’re reading this, sorry. we got lost almsot tryin to get outta the parking lot, then we missed hte xit to I-95, even though it says I-95, had to U-turn, almost got hit.

Once we got on NJTP, the speed limit is 65, we were goin 60! everytim uncle got confused, we slowed down immensely. i tried to tell david without linda n feba hearin, but linda saw the text message and whispered it in my ear, and i think uncle heard cuz he shot up to 80.

But, we got home safe, no road rage. did a lot of thinkin. my future’s lookin good, harsh, but good.

got a wedding on saturday in NY. i really wanna drive up there, told my parents itd be ok, cuz we’d be followin ppl. but they’re too scared, and i know they’ll call and if they find out we’re driving, they’ll be stressin over in India.

its only 1040, n im sleepy. tomorows another day.