indian bear

Someone buy me this! please! =(

Musician’s Friend – Alesis Andromeda 61-Key Analog Synthesizer (705590)

today was a long tiresome day. mainly cuz i was tired from yesterday.

yesterday was church, got up early to get pstr freddy’s slideshow ready, then after church we ate at my aunts house and went to paly basketball. basketball was good, it was the first game of our league, which will hopefully run well. we had three teams, PICA, GPC, and COG. no one from PFGA or IPC (HIV, i eman HIWC:P). least i thnk there wasnt, i got abd memory. that was from 3-6.

after that we had a PCYF meeting. not a meeting meeting, but a planning meeting. that was at jose abrahams house. MAN! hes got a NIIIICE house. got a grand piano, not baby grand, grand piano, and it takes up very little space. all the beds have step so you can climb into them. its friggin HUGE!

neway after that i had to go to Josh;s friends house to pick up a computer, then i was jsut tired and tooka shower and slept at 12.

5 hours later i woke up for work and it was no biggie at work. did all my stuff finished it all. we ordered chinese which filled me up and made me even more tired. later jen and teena tried to hold me down in a chair while i was trying to print signs, and they tried to cut my hair. in the scuffle to get away fromt hem i banged my elbow in the toolbox and cut my self. finally i let Teena, the professional Hairdresser In Training, cut a small lock of my hair which she now has taped to her clipboard, like when people attach antlers tot he hood of their car. well i know what im talkin about

came home at 3, and slept til 5. everyone else left to pick up my parents. yea, they come home today. the doorbell ringeth!

my parents jsut came home. YEA! i know, “why arent you down there?” cuz i got lotsa time to be with them. let my aunts n uncles spend time with them. plus i gotta finish this blog.

PCYF meeting was on friday. it was good. Nick Gough was awesome. its pronounced like goff, no goh.

ICF Coffeehouse on 26th with Zoa, Frontlynaz, and others at Rutgers. i hope i can go. Sam and Stan are goin to JOC thursday. i think ill go wiht them. needa get out more.

She leans back relaxed

against the amp

her head slightly off

of the edge.

her neck so long

sleek, slender and smooth

calls me to run my hand

along its length.

it reaches down to

her voluptuous body

which, though bruised

brings me joy to see.

with nothing but her strings

covering her figure

she pleads me to sing

to her so she can join

and sing to me.

how i long to hear her voice

so warm and soft

yet she becomes harsh

when i require her strength.

her range is what

i have always dreamed of

she struggles with me

hiding her voice under

off-key colorations,

and i must force her back

to her place, even though

i know she does this

only to tease me.

above all my others,

even my first,

i hold her the highest

until another takes her place

a place that she does

not so easily give up.

she cries, but i cannot submit

this day to her needs.

i will always love her

she will always

be my Nicole.

Last ngiht i got bout two hours of sleep. iunno why. it was jsut so friggin hot, i went downstairs and got a drink and kinda cooled down. then i ahd work this mornin at 6. the truck wasnt all that big, we finished MOST of it by 10. slowpoke of course was the only one not done.

On the Best Buy Radio theres a song on CD2, Track 3, It’s some rock song form a new band, and the song starts off hard and goes into this guy angrily singing lyrics. one line goes “f**k your self”, only its not bleeped out in the CD. so, if your in Best Buy, go into the CDs section and listen for the song and wait for it to come on. then complain to the manager and demand that you be compensated for having to listen to that. iunno if theres any actual law, but managers are stupid sometimes and maybe you’ll get a free CD or sumtin. dont accept no 10% thing, everyone gets that. i think the album title is “Light into darkness” or sutmhin liek that

HURRY! this CD will only be playing till the end of march, and some stores might remove it once they catch on.

well, there was more to write. um…ok, iunno

PCYF meeting tonight at 7 at COG (WElsh & Dewees St.) everybody come!

now i need sleep before i leave

i forgot, yesterday in the mail i got a letter from the office of vocational rehabilitation in Norristown. it’s form that government job testing that i took a few weeks ago. the starting salary is REAL nice, full time, gov benefits, but im gonna ahve to turn it down cuz its 40 minutes away. ill do 30 minutes, but 40’s too much of a stretch.

just when i thought i had it all figured out, i screw it all up. iunno tends to be that way for me. i jsut keep falling into bad habits. got my room cleaned again, but my desk is covered in code from MT and Flash. i should take better care of this stuff.

My hair is UP. yes, it is. i like it. at work they threatened to tie me down and store use a pair of clippers. i did like my hair shaved n short with a nice shapeup, but i want it long while i still got it.

started listenin to Cream again. Eric Clapton is amazing. i love his stuff, all of it, old, new, everything he does is amazing. i need to find my ginger baker and jack bruce.

i got a new name for our band. the band, which was formerly Skip the Bear and is now Tonal Memory, should now be called GUmmy Bears & Kool-Aid. Eh, whatever. just need to practice, get songs written, get disco to show up, or find a replacement.

i need new friends. not all new, jsut some new ones. basically i need friends who dont ahve school and share an interest in music. in other words, i need band members!

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I put a a new skin on my xanga last night. im happy with it for now, somethings id like to change but im ognna leave it. took less than an hour or so to figure out what i wanted to do and get it done.

wann work on the flash, but im so tired. i went to actionscripts.org and found there site was hacked. at least the index page was. i was still able to find my way to the tutorials. anyway, the hacked front page was pretty interesting. in case its not up there anymore, it looked sumthing like this (might take some time to load):
ActionScripts.org by GipsHackers Crew

i feel sorry for AS.org, but its funny.

i wasnt feelin the scrolling entries, so i got rid of em.

so tired. i need to sleep so i can focus. im off tomorow, which means that i have llotsa time alter to work on all this and more.

twenty years of selfish pride
i tried to hide
i cant deny
My ears they burn
with words i’ve heard
i can’t discern
The knots inside my heart take hold
i seem so cold
leave me alone
i shut and lock my doors
this place is not yours
you’re on foreign shores
Stay out of my way
im alone today
i have options to weigh

this wasnt always the pattern
not that it matters
but i seem to be scattered
its been growin since 96
dont know what it is
but its where it begins
the lack of focus on my part
following my heart
but my brain doesnt start
the road that is less traveled
is the one that i unravel
yet, i’m tempted by paved gravel

speak words to soothe me
but but jsut let me be
im tired of the monotony
i’d write on blackboard wiht fingertips
or shred my bones to bits
than hear my name on your lips
im sure you mean well
but how much mroe can i tell
that your presence does not do me well
you dont seem to understand “No!”
so i ahve no respect to show
id rather see you in the belly of a volcano
these words may be harsh
but i didnt even start
to speak from the heart
but my focus is adrift riight now

AAAGGGGHHHH!!!

i need my own place!