im a lil peeved at myself. havent gotten around to finishing my Flash version of this site. Laziness is bad.
I was so tired today. i had work at 6 and they said that Brad Anderson, the CEO or pres or whatever of Best Buy, was comin. fo shizzle?! so everyone was on their toes working extra hard, until we realized it was prolly a scam by management or district HQ to get us to work harder. neway i left at 230 n he dint show up.
ever see the movie Seven? with Brad pitt and Kevin Spacey. its about a guy who kills people who have committed one of the 7 deadly sins. and the guy who was lazy, or a sloth, he was tied down to his bed so he coudlnt move and left to die and rot. there might have been more to it, been a while, but that was the general idear. (yes there is an ‘r’) he died and his body was eaten away at n what not. neway, joe at work said im gonna wind up like him, cuz i was being a sloth today.
the weather was so great today. we had a lil picnic outside for lunch, sat out in the parking lot on the side. we need to put a table n benches there. i drove home and actually had to turn on the fans and roll down the window.
theres this song by delirious called Heaven. its awesome. i love delirious. not enough ppl listen to them. i wanan play delirious songs with Tonal, but that’ll have to wait till summer prolly when we can actually practice.
i need a new hard drive. i found that if i get a RAID 0 setup on my computer my videos will encode and render lil faster. at least thats how the theory goes. plus, i need a 40 GB hard drive to act as my C: cuz my SATA drive wont work right with two IDE drives. i know, techno jargon. also need a camcorder so i can film stuff. seriously, should i be a film student?
iunno what happened to me. all through school i got great grades. i was such a geek, still am a bit. i got all As and a few Bs, up until 8th grade. thats when i got my first D. it wasnt too bad, it was Health, i just got lazy in that class. then 9th grade was mediocre, wasnt real bad, but got a few Cs. tenth is when i really fell off the smart train. not aht i got dumb, just my GPA fell and i dint work hard. early case of senioritis maybe?
i just looked at classes and said, what am i doin here? i did alright in english, math was eh, i enjoyed it, but i wasnt focused on it, social studies was always fun, and science was fun too. my problem was my work ethic. i just dont like workin on things that serve no purpose to me. i did my labs, but never turned in reports. i understood them, just dint want to do any more work, cuz it wasnt enjoyable to me entirley, and i saw it having no effect on my future. English, i liked writing essays, even if they were written last minute. i was, and still am, good at it.
i knew i wasnt going to be a doctor or a scientist or anything like that. i could if i wanted to, but i dint want to. i dont want a career where i have to work late into the night and around the clock at ajob i dont like just to make a ton of cash. i want to work hard at something i enjoy doing. if i become a doctor, it’ll be because i enjoy being a doctor, not because thats where the money’s at.
people always tell me that music is not a good profession. when i was a CS major they said CS is not a good field. its never about a good field, or good money with me. i do want that, but i want to ENJOY the rest of my life. i dont want any regrets about what i did or didn’t do, and that which could have been.
i do worry that im heading for a big let down, so im expanding my horizons, now im thinkin about going into film. iunno if i want to go to school for it, or just try it on my own. ive thought about MIS, and i very much want to work in a business environment, but the whole academic environment doesnt suit me. its ugh.
iunno, maybe ill just work retail for the rest of my life. what a drag. i jsut gotta get more disciplined.